Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Not So Happy post

Now I know I'm not usually upset or down when I post, and I assure you that if you want to keep your happy upbeat attitude, you should stop reading... I mean it, what I am about to post really can affect a lot of people in a very negative way and I really don't want to ruin your day

Fair Warning.

When I was six years old I was molested by my brothers uncle. Little did I know my older brother was going through the same thing. I have always held this guilt in my heart, this feeling that if I had said something, this wouldn't have happpened to anyone else, I could have stopped him from hurting other girls...
A while back he was sent to jail, then released 3 years later on probation and now, lo and behold, he has been at it again.. If you want to know the whole story you can find it here.

I want to know why he was let out in the first place? Why did he deserve a second chance? Not even a second chance, remember when readin the article, it only mentions 3 girls... but there were atleast 3 other people he has done this too.

I wish I hadn't been to scared when I was younger to step up and say something. But I was only SIX years old! How can anyone expect a six year old to understand. I thought it was my fault. It took me until I was seventeen before I finally said anything to anyone.
What he did changed my life in so many ways, I grew up afraid of men who were older than me. Afraid to be touched by anyone. I wouldn't even let my mother hug me. Why can't people realize what an impact they are causing, what damage they are doing.

His mother is in denial, she curses the papers and calls everyone liars, I guess it can be hard to come to terms with what you brought into this world.
He's a father now, and I really feel for that little boy.
I hate that this wasn't just some stranger that did this to me, I hate that he and I will forever be linked by family. I hate this.

I hate this man.
And I don't hate easily.

1 comment:

Jessica said...

Oh my gosh. :( How absolutely terrible. I'm at a loss at what to say, but I just wanted to let you know that you'll be in my thoughts.

At six years old, I can't imagine how ANYONE would be expected to stand up for themselves. We trust adults way too much at that age to do so. You poor, poor dear.

Keep your chin up. One day, he will be Judged.